#my cute little sadboi

[illiana-mystery]

When you're trying to find the right glass...

[itsabouttimex2]

For fun how about rating Wukong ship from lmk and give your opinion why?

SWK Ship Ratings

(Scores rank from -10 at the lowest, and 10 at the highest)

Shadowpeach

Name Rating: 5/10. Basic, but rolls off the tongue. Started the trend of Sun Wukong having extremely basic ship names- more on that below.

Canon Rating: 0/10. Whatever they had in the past, Macaque simply treats Wukong far too awfully to really justify the two of them ever getting together. Even the attempts at reconciliation feel more like extremely forced ship baiting, given how it goes from one of the two being marginally kinder to the other than usual, then immediately dropping it for more sniping. (Past!Shadowpeach receives 5/10.)

Fanon Rating: -10/10. I’ve spoken at length about this, but fans love to distort Wukong into a drooling abuser so stupid he can’t breath through his nose, usually while turning Macaque into a Possession Sue who only serves to be the author’s simpering self-insert who is the most perfect little baby of all time who has never ever done anything wrong at all even once. If there is an attempt to be “nuanced” or “unbiased” it manifest as “Sun Wukong “killed” (re: defended himself against) Macaque so he’s worse.” It’s an awful, extremely pervasive dynamic that rots any fandom enjoyment I could have had for this couple.

Personal Enjoyment: 6/10. Getting to write Macaque as the legitimately awful person that he is takes off the edge of seeing constant “uwu sadboi” Macaque content. Still, I rarely touch anyone else’s Shadowpeach content because of this.

Peachlotus

Name Rating: 2/10. As you’ll see, most ship names involving Sun Wukong are, uh… extremely lazy. Just one of the other character’s traits with “peach” slapped before/after it. Fandom really dropped the ball with most of these. This one is especially clunky, at least on my tongue.

(See, Macaque gets stuff like Lunartides, Inkypages, Shadowpeach, etc- all very cool.. We need to diversify the nouns is what I’m saying. Coulda been something like “GingerRoot” cause orange fur + plant boy. “FlowerBuds” for the platonic name for peaches + lotuses. Do you guys see what I’m saying. It can’t just be raw peaches all the way down.)

Canon Rating: 2/10. Ne Zha also doesn’t treat Wukong too kindly, interacting with him mostly through insults and physical attacks. He does seem to have some understanding of the king, though, which gives him a slight boost over Macaque.

Fanon Rating: 1/10. It barely exists, and what little does exist is essentially just “Ne Zha is mad at Wukong over what the fuck ever, so they’re fighting” and little more. There’s a lot of potential for bonding over immortality and awful pasts or being commandeered by domineering authority figures, which I wish was used more often.

Personal Enjoyment: 2/10. I don’t see the dynamic, personally. Again, Ne Zha’s only interactions with him are only ever vitriolic or exasperated in nature, which doesn’t leave stable footing for a relationship to stand. Maybe I’ll make a chatbot for them one day and see if I come around to it.

“Freepeaches”

Name Rating: -5/10. This shit is exactly what I’m talking about with the lazily slapping “peach” onto whatever and going on. “Free” has no meaning between Wukong and Tang- it’s just a holdover from a more popular ship. Tang only mooches food from Pigsy. That’s one of the biggest elements of their dynamic. Sure, Tang likes free stuff (food, rides, physical labor), but when does he ever get that from Wukong? It just makes no sense.

AND IF IT HAD TO HAVE THE FRUIT, TANGYPEACHES WAS RIGHT THERE

Canon Rating: 6/10. Tang literally drew himself and the Monkey King together inside a heart. He adores Wukong, thought maybe not for who he truly is- and the two don’t any interaction in terms of Tang realizing his autistic parasocial special interest idol is a lonely old sage who misses his friends, which cripples what was a pretty cute dynamic. I think Tang coming down from his hero worship and being just a genuine friend to SWK would be cute, definitely.

Fanon Rating: 9/10. Pretty enjoyable! Freepeaches is one of the few dynamics where Sun Wukong isn’t constantly turned into a punching bag/villain to be beaten around for the amusement of the audience, and the two are often portrayed as legitimately healthy together- I especially enjoy how Tang is portrayed as needing to move past his hero worship for the two to have a healthy relationship. It’s cute.

Personal Enjoyment: 6/10. Never addressing the resemblance to Sanzang or having them interact in regards to this while the circlet is back on Wukong’s head feels like a massively missed opportunity, honestly. I think Sun Wukong’s personal feelings have been left to the wayside for far too long in canon, and getting to a point where almost every fucking character represses their feelings is lazy and boring.

Peachbuns

Name Rating: 4/10. Again. Just “peach” slapped onto an adjective or noun. It’s frustratingly boring. This one sounds delicious and both components are related to food at least, which fits Pigsy’s background… but it also sounds like something a horny dude would ask for pics of in your DMs.

Canon Rating: 1/10. Pigsy isn’t willing to take any of Wukong’s shit, so he serves as a pretty great “bullshit barrier” that provides a legitimately strict opposing force to Wukong, but there’s little else to even their relationship out. He’s never kind or supportive or worried- if the two interact, it’s always through the lens of “Pigsy is mad/suspicious”. There’s never any real bonding or growth between them at all.

Fanon Rating: 4/10. This ship barely exists, and when it does it’s Sun Wukong being lectured through life by a big strong man- not a dynamic I’m a fan of. However, it is surprisingly kind to Wukong in terms of empathizing with his struggles. Again, I wish there was less of “Pigsy teaches Wukong basic life skills” because it falls right back into the revolting fanon that is “SWK is a big dumb fuck who can’t read or cook or take care of himself without a husband to wipe his ass.”

Personal Enjoyment: 2/10. I just don’t click with it. Pigsy doesn’t like Wukong, doesn’t trust him, and doesn’t interact with him outside of that.

Moonstone

Name Rating: 10/10. This is what I like! Moonstone is not only a very real (and very beautiful) mineral, but it ties to both of them equally! You don’t see Wukong’s status as a stone-born demon be referenced often, so this is a refreshing change of pace from the constant “peach” names.

Canon Rating: 7/10. Chang’e is a lovely woman who is simultaneously not be willing put up with Sun Wukong’s bullshit while still legitimately respecting and admiring him. It makes for a nice duality in their relationship that most of his dynamics don’t provide.

Fanon Rating: 10/10. The working dynamic is so fucking good to start with that I’ve never once seen fanon drop the ball. Never. This ship is always so fucking sweet and honest with Chang’e calling out Wukong for his bullshit while never pushing it to the “Shit on Sun Wukong Show” levels that the fandom loves so much- she takes no shit, but does no harm. She’s supportive and acknowledges his traumas and fears. Wukong does his best for her. Moonstone shippers get an A+ and extra recess time.

Personal Enjoyment: 7/10. I just… I really like this one, dammit. There’s not a lot to go off of, but seeing fanworks that do not primarily treat SWK like living trash/baby the hell out of him is nice.

Lionpeach

Name Rating: 3/10. Again. Very boring and generic. I’ve seen Fuzzypeach which is a little cuter, at least. Still, it’s all the same “peach”+noun format.

Canon Rating: 3/10. The devotion Azure bears to Sun Wukong seems like it would bear a higher marking, but it’s shallow and flimsy. Azure never understood Wukong, never wanted what was best for him, never cared about his safety or happiness. Azure projects his beliefs and wants onto the people around him, blinding the big fella to shortcomings on their parts, and is delusional enough to never look inwards. Still, I can legitimately see

Fanon Rating: 0/10. It’s just smut. That’s it. When it isn’t it’s just “Ooooh! Azure is jealous of Macaque! Tee-hee, sorry Azure!” and that’s it. I’ve never actually seen any non-sexual, Azure-focused Lionpeach.

Personal Enjoyment: 5/10. It’s a fun enough dynamic to explore, especially with how unhealthy it is. I’ll probably make a bot of this too one day. Maybe a “yandere dads” type. Or a mutual Primal Moon bot.

Celestialchaos

Name Rating: 10/10. Another not peach-based name is a win in my book!

Canon Rating: 6/10. Xiangliu is civil enough to Wukong (about as much as everyone else), but the mention of them having once been friends is what got my attention. Shrouded past + + potential reincarnation shenanigans + decently civil behavior = a very happy writer. It’s so little but it makes my brain itch.

Fanon Rating: 0/10. It doesn’t even exist babes ;( I’m scrounging for water in the lonely plains of a desert y’all. I’m a lonely little cactus and Celestialchaos is my annual three-inch rain.

Personal Enjoyment: 10/10. C’mon now. You all were expecting this. I love this ship. I’ve already made four chatbots. I love Xiangliu as a wild little freak who desperately tries to push Wukong away from other people and sad lonely Wukong finding refuge in a freaky toxic snake. Especially I like the idea of Xiangliu pitting himself against Macaque and going after Sun Wukong just to cause a little trouble, only to actually catch feelings and start pursuing him in earnest. I like “I want you at your worst so I can prove that I still love you even then” Xiangliu and “You love me at all?” Wukong.

I really like this ship.

End Result

(Scores ranging from -40 to +40)

Shadowpeach= 1/40

(Past!Shadowpeach would around 20)

Lotuspeach= 7/40

Freepeaches= 16/40

Peachbuns= 11/40

Moonstone= 34/40

Lionpeach= 11/40

Celestialchaos= 26/40

[insufferableprotagonistpoll]

Propaganda why Evan Hansen is insufferable:

just. oh my god. i cant put it into words. hes horrible im sure the rest of the world can find better ways to explain it than me

he lies to a grieving family about having been their dead son’s best friend. he does a bunch of patently awful things to either keep up this lie or benefit from it. he is portrayed as the good guy oh poor little guy he just has anxiety THE ENTIRE TIME

Lying creep

Lies about having been friends with a suicide victim so he can get in the pants of said victim's sister. The narrative excuses it and gives Evan no consequences for his actions because he's uwu anxious sadboi. What more is there to say? Other than the fact Ben Platt looked far too old to play a teenage boy so the film version is downright disturbing.

Propaganda why Kazuya Kinoshita is insufferable:

Pathetic loser who never grows as a character and drags down the lives of the girls around him because he’s so selfish

Bland boring loser gets a whole bunch of cute girls to actually fall in love with him by being an absolute pissant go away challenge

After his girlfriend dumps him, Kazuya hires a rent-a-girlfriend (basically a sex worker without the actual sex) to accompany him on a date. They have a great time together and go their separate ways. Afterwards when he goes to leave a review, he sees all the other good reviews and gets jealous because she's being hired by other men, and leaves a one-star review out of spite. This is his starting point and he barely gets better, constantly making his personal issues other people's problem.

More propaganda

[vieraslaji]

Hello fellow Finnish learners!

I've been meaning to put this post together for weeks and I kept thinking it wasn't ready, but now I've decided to just keep updating it after I post so here it is, in its unfinished form:

While I do enjoy Käärijä's music and I think it's a great way to learn vocabulary, I have difficulty with auditory processing and sometimes I can't understand rap even in my native language. Also, as someone living very far away from Finland, listening and speaking are the hardest things for me to practice.

So! Here's some random assorted Finnish media that I think are nice listening practice and also (most importantly) not Peppa Pig. I cannot professionally vouch for any of these as a learning tool; all I can say is that I've watched/listened to/read them and I feel like maybe I learned something.

MUSIC

Katri Ylander (check out Pandat, Älä kysy miks, Sano mulle jotain kaunista, Kyselen) - she has a pretty low vocal range, which is great for understanding, and she has a lot of repetitive choruses

Ollie (check out Ainakin mä rakastin, Aavikolla, Älä riko mua enää) - we've got kind of a downtempo sadboy thing going on here, which is excellent for our learning purposes

Mikko Harju (check out Meidän puolella, Oon nähnyt unta, Mä olen tässä, Sinä riittää) - there tend to be clear breaks between words in his songs and he uses less puhekieli than a lot of artists

Younghearted (check out Kuljetaan, Tässä ja nyt, Sun numero) - literally I just like them idk

Antti Tuisku - Koti - I wouldn't put Antti Tuisku as an artist in general on this list, but Koti basically feels like an Ollie song

YOUTUBE

KatChats - great educational content for all learner levels, speaks very slowly and uses very little puhekieli. I also think she has a facebook and/or discord community?

Nedde - mostly a Sims and Sims-esque gaming channel, which is great for vocab building and comprehension because she narrates what she's doing onscreen

T I N K E - lots of life vlogs and sims videos; I think she speaks really clearly and understandably

Herbalisti - he speaks a lot faster and more colloquially, but his minecraft and random-pelit videos are good for the same reasons as Sims videos. also he has a really cute cat

Aleksi Rantamaa - specifically his TLDR LIVE videos are easiest to understand because he's talking to chat so he repeats himself a lot and takes a lot of pauses between his sentences

PODCASTS

Opi Suomea! - hasn't been updated in a long time but it's great listening and vocab practice about everyday topics

Soturikissat Kastepilven kanssa - I am about to make another post about this whole phenomenon but just trust me on this one

Miksei kukaan kertonut? - the host speaks very understandably and, way more importantly, her guests always have decent microphones

NETFLIX (it's what I have sorry)

Julie and the Phantoms - it's honestly very well done for a teen drama and the music is stupidly catchy

Zero Chill - another netflix teen drama; I liked it less than julie and the phantoms but it's fine

Heartstopper - don't lie to me, you're on tumblr. you've heard of heartstopper.

Carmen Sandiego - genuinely super engaging as far as kid's shows go; it reminds me of the educational cartoons I watched as a kid

The Dragon Prince - literally by the creators of ATLA, you don't need my elevator pitch for it

[muniimyg]

the morning after // kth

pieces of peace; a series of therapy sessions

# 3 ! oc has broken up with taehyung and he struggles to understand the breakup

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paring:

sadboy taehyung + ex girlfriend oc

au/genre:

post-break up au / getting back together

healing, sulking, attempting to move on

angst angst angst

note: tbh this one has been in my drafts for literally MONTHS. i dunno what is even going on but i jus need it out lololol

There’s no point.

No point in anything these days.

No point in eating out because he was used to asking for a table for two and eating alone just looks so fucking sad.

No point in making coffee because he doesn’t even like it. Regardless of how many sweeteners he put in his cup, it always tastes too bitter. Too bland. Too anticlimactic. But he sipped every sip just to spend time with you in the morning. So no, Taehyung did not like coffee but he loved you. He learned how to make coffee for two, not for one. 

It hasn’t been long since you left.

It’s only been a month and a half but it feels like a lifetime without you by his side. You left and made his king-sized bed for one. He hasn’t slept alone in years. He doesn’t even remember what it feels like to sleep on the right side of the bed because that was your side.

It’s the same way he can’t recall what it’s like to have his heart to himself: it was yours. For so long, it had been yours to care for, to love, and to keep. 

But shit happens.

Things change. 

People change. 

You needed space and Taehyung had to give it to you. He had to empty parts of himself for you. It left him questing who he is without you.

Yeah.

Who is he without you? 

It’s something his friend would constantly ask one another whenever he arrived late to dinners in hoodies and a sad smile. No one could make him feel better even for a millisecond. You were by far the best thing to have ever happened to him and everyone knew that. 

Still, Taehyung’s friends tried. 

Tonight, they invited another pretty girl that looked to be Taehyung’s type. Again, they play the not-so-subtle game of “have you met Taehyung?” 

It makes him sick. 

How I Met Your Mother was your favourite show to play as background noise. Especially when you two were preparing dinners or making sleepy 8AM pancakes before heading to your parent’s home for Sunday family lunch. 

The girl looks a little too much like you. It pains Taehyung more than it attracts him. He feels stupid in front of his friends. He feels stupid for doing this to you because it wasn’t your face or your body. None of that compared to the way you held his heart and loved him the way you did. 

How you mastered comforting him on days he felt weaker than usual. 

How each kiss from you felt better than the last. 

How complete his life felt sitting next to you, watching the raspberry lemonade sky fade into a starry night.

How you completed him.

It’s only been a month and half but he still misses mornings with you. The stupid mid-day texts you’d send because a mug, a random YouTube video, or a picture of a cute dog popped up and reminded you of him. It was everything mundane that had him enchanted by you. 

He misses you. 

From slow and giggly sex, spontaneous convince store trips at 2AM, and even quiet dinners after an argument—he wants nothing more than those moments back. He wants nothing more than for you to come back and just be his again.

It aches.

Every part of his day aches as he’s all alone. Who's by your side? Is it that guy from your workplace that couldn’t get the hint? Is it your best girlfriends that never really liked him in the first place? Or are you by yourself too?

The only thing Taehyung doesn’t miss about you is the way you made him feel the morning after.

When he woke up groggy, eyes puffy from crying, and worst of all: hopeful. He has never wanted to wake up from a nightmare this bad before. It was that morning when he brewed coffee for two, ate out for dinner, and asked for a table for two, and found himself dragging his feet with his head hanging low on his walk home all alone. 

It takes so much of him to fix these habits. 

Brew coffee for one, not two. 

Table for one, not two. 

Live for himself, not you. 

It felt silly. The whole break-up and the ache wrapped around it like a bow. There was no point in feeling that kind of devastation, right? Taehyung knows he’ll get over it. Though it may be hard and nearly impossible, he will one day get over you. 

But not today. 

Not the morning after, not the week after, not months after.. He’ll continue to hurt until you come back to him and heal him or he goes numb from all this fucking bullshit. 

Taehyung has never felt more alone in his life. 

Then, his phone buzzes.

Jimin [3:29AM]: We’ll stop setting U up on dates if U want. We can come over and make sure U’re eating right if U want

Taehyung [3:32AM]: Nah

Jimin [3:37AM]: … Or idk talk to her? Talk to a therapist or smt. Idk. This isn’t U. Feels like we’ve been losing U lately. Don’t break up with us.

Taehyung [3:41AM]: Lol

Taehyung sighs, not bothering to keep this conversation going. It’s all the same. It’s the same pity and the same self-help suggestions. It all burned slowly and made him feel crazy. He wasn’t crazy because, in the darkness of his bedroom, he thinks to himself: this helps. 

Talking, acknowledging, and letting myself feel everything right now by himself.. Helps. For now, this will suffice. Being here for himself helps. This is therapeutic.  

Besides, he doesn’t have the energy to go to a therapist and force himself to open up. Maybe he should go there when he knows his feelings a little better himself.. Yeah. That’s more like it.

It’s like this: if he knows he feels alone, what was the point of trying to fill that void when it’s yours to fill? You are only his to love and that defeats him entirely. He doesn’t want to call or text you because he wants you to do that on your own. 

There was no point in begging or trying to fix himself. Why couldn’t he just be broken in peace? Be aimless and call it healing. Taehyung doesn’t want direction right now. He didn’t want there to be a point or to even think of love. The questions were endless, but the answer had been prefixed from the very beginning. 

Then, his phone buzzes. He expects it to be Jimin.

YN [4:01AM]: Hey

YN [4:01AM]: U up?

Taehyung [4:03AM]: Hi

YN [4:03AM]: Can we talk?

Taehyung [4:04AM]: Idk. About what?

YN [4:04AM]: Us? The morning after? Anything

Taehyung [4:07AM]: Come over. I’ll make us some coffee

YN [4:08AM]: But you don’t like coffee

Taehyung [4:08AM]: I still drank it every morning with U. Also, Idk how to brew coffee for one so just come over. We’ll figure it out

YN [4:09AM]: Okay. Let’s figure it out

Taehyung [4:09AM]: Good

Taehyung [4:12AM]: I miss you

YN [4:13AM]: I miss you too

Taehyung smiles at his phone. He gets up and goes to his kitchen to begin brewing coffee for two. He isn’t sure what this means or what is to come.. But he has a feeling there’s a point to all of this—that the morning after would be a new beginning. 

After all, what was the point of love if it wasn’t going to be you?

[sadboytournament]

ROUND ONE

Propaganda

Adriane Tepes/Alucard: Bro's mom got murdered and his dad went insane and tried to wipe out humanity, and Adrian had to kill him to save everyone. AND THEN he had to deal with people trying to revive his dad to cause even more deaths! Also he's immortal so he's outlived everyone he's ever cared about 😭

Jason Todd: (tw: sexual assault mention) the second robin, gets taken in by bruce after his abusive dad walks out and his mum dies of an overdose (and he also steals the wheels of the batmobile, king). bruce trains him to be robin and for his original run he was a pretty cute kid (with the occasional Angst Arcs that are pretty common w robin - special shoutout to jason finding out his dad was actually killed by two face and he just didnt know, and an arc where a woman that reminds him of his mum gets raped by a guy that iirc has diplomatic immunity i think?? or enough power to get away with it? anyway jason fucking kills him so not that immune ig) then death in the family happened and jason found out his mum isnt his biological mum so he sets off trying to find his bio mum, and eventually he meets her, but shes working for the joker and sells jason out to him. the joker then proceeds to beat jason with a crowbar and blows the building hes in up with his mum also inside it, killing them both. dc then does a fun thing for the next 20 years where they start treating jason like the '"""troubled""" """angry""" robin who was too reckless and was always going to end up dead. eventually dc brings jason back (as dc is wont to do), by having him wake up inside his coffin years after dying, dig his way out with his bare hands, and walk half-dead in the general direction of wayne manor until he's hit by a car and taken to the hospital (where all his says is 'bruce' over and over, and when asked who bruce is he responds 'my dad' and passes out) eventually he ends up in talia al ghul's care and is dunked in a lazarus pit to revive him completely, and he finds out not only is the joker still alive, but batmans also replaced him as robin. jason returns to gotham as red hood and has an honestly pretty slay arc where he taunts bruce by doing a better job of cleaning up gotham than him ngl. eventually it all culminates with him luring batman to a building where hes keeping the joker and telling b that his no kill rule is bullshit, and he shouldve killed the joker for taking jason away from him. he gives bruce an ultimatum thats basically if you dont kill me ill kill the joker, you gotta pick' and bruce chooses to instead disarm jason and save them both, and jason escapes. what follows is a lot of ups and downs for red hood comics (mostly due to the "angry robin" narrative dc writers have spun, making a lot of jasons appearances wildly ooc fights, lots of weird (tragically in character) cringefail behaviour, and this odd period where hes a natural redhead and his helmet is this ugly dome). itd be too long to list every jason todd sadboy moment from the last 20 years here but i do want to give a special shoutout to a currect story arc where bruce (who thinks hes being controlled by a 'perfect batman' hes got in his head) gets sick of jason's """reckless behaviour""" and fucking alters jasons brain chemistry so that whenever his adrenaline rises, he'll have a panic attack so severe hes basically incapacitated and can barely speak through his fear (the instant he escapes bruce's captivity he jumps into a burning building to save a little girl im SOFT for him!!). also second special shoutout to the jason todd in the arkham games who didnt even have the luxury of dying at the jokers hand, and was instead tortured for like 3 years, branded, beaten by p much everyone in batmans rogues gallery (and some of jokers goons dressed as batman), eventually jason breaks himself out only to find out that NOT ONLY has bruce replaced him, but it took the man like. a month. like jason wouldnt be thought dead for a long time, he was missing and bruce just went 'ill let this new kid adopt himself' ig? also theres a vr game in the arkham series where you can go into arkham asylum and hear jason screaming 🙃

[iguessitsjustme]

Deep Night Ep 4 Thoughts

I…took the day off of work for *cough cough* personal reasons. Don’t worry about it I’m only a little sick this time. I’ll be better tomorrow. I think. So since I am not working today, it’s time for Deep Night 4: Cuteness Galore

I mean it when I say this show is so unbelievably wholesome. I was told it was surprisingly communicative but the difference between believing and seeing it with my own eyes is insane. 

I wish I could read Thai. I do not know what is being said. 

Poor Khem just wants to spend time with his boyfriend but is being horrendously and adorably teased.

I love Pan. In case I haven’t said that a million times already.

I love how often these two kiss. They’re simply like “my boyfriend exists? I must kiss him” and sometimes its just a little peck on the cheek and sometimes its a full on make out but no matter what they want their lips on their man and I love it. 

Two people keeping snacks for you? Seiji is living the dream. 

My coworker just texted to say our friendship is over because she has to do one of my tasks. Someone remind me to buy her a little treat tomorrow she’s my favorite person

Oooooo love triangle. Nowwwwwww kiss they will love each other eventually why not start now with a little smoocharoo

Who is this gorgeous woman with Freya? I have a rival? That’s okay. We all have two hands. 

Let them kiss damn it! YAY. I love when the show listens to my inner dialogue.

Actually plans cancelled. I cannot watch right now. There is a truck idling outside my apartment and its making the texture of the air WRONG. I feel like I need to peel my skin off.

Okay we’re back. Fucking trucks. 

Oooohhhh Khem throwing the club's rule at his mother. Then outing his own relationship? I did not see that coming. 

ENGLISH? And holy shit it’s soooo good????

I might be in love with Mr. DJ Man. What’s his name?

Oh jealousy is back. I actually love the jealousy in this show a whole lot. 

Pannnnn. He’s so cute. I adore him.

I love that everyone has just decided to ignore the club’s rules. They’re all dating. All of them.

Khem stop kissing him. Your boy is uncomfortable. Khem. Bro. I know you’re jealous but my man you gotta calm down. I hope he apologizes because he did go a bit overboard. 

IMMEDIATE self reflection. Good for you Khem. I love you. 

Someone give Seiji a hug. 

Honestly I’m not the biggest Ken fan. I’m waiting for him to grow on me. I’m sure he will like other characters. But I’m still waiting. 

Seiji having a Moment™

Oh I love Mr. DJ man. He is me. I am him. We are one.

Okay you two. Now talk it out. Use your words. 

Okay so I have some thoughts on that confrontation with guests. I know Khem is jealous but I don’t think that’s why he said Wela is unavailable. He has already reflected on himself and so far has not had an issue bringing guests to Wela. I think Khem actually has a very good gut instinct of guests that could be inappropriate or potentially dangerous. And he is very attuned to his instincts. So he listens to them. In terms of customer service, he still has some work to do on not escalating. However, he presented reasonable alternatives and I don’t think he was in the wrong here. Now let’s see if I got any of this right. 

Yeeeep. That guest has roving hands. Pan to the rescue. 

Lowkey I don’t think Khem is wrong but I also think Wela should punch him. 

Pan is so smart. I love him. Have I mentioned that in the past five minutes?

Why are the cops here again? Absolutely absurd.

I would be demanding the results of the investigation every single time they came and found nothing. 

Khem leave your mother alone. She needs support now not your misdirected anger.

Oh no are we about to end on sadboi hours? I guess I have no choice but to watch episode 5 now. 

[itsdetachable]

to be honest this was supposed to have a slightly different feel to it. It was inspired by a romper i got (it's black with a rainbow stripe down each side) and I wanted a cute sorta cuddle pic. but you know it just….sorta felt a little nostalgic to me, like it was a memory more than a snapshot if that makes sense. I'm 38 this year. This is just around the same age that, in the loose "story" Hollo & Ziggy are set in, Ziggy dies. And Ziggy has always been a somber sadboy, yeah, but this year especially it's making me feel like I'm missing him a bit. Even though he hasn't gone anywhere, technically, and I'll be drawing him as long as I will be drawing him, right, but…but you know. I don't know. Ziggy was always created as the counterpoint to Hollo - the sad part of me to contrast the energetic side of Hollo. It feels horrible to say there's an appropriateness to the timing of my age and Ziggy's age and - you see, okay, this year I've been pushing my boundaries. I've been fighting against the feelings of low self worth and thoughts that no one gives a fuck about me, you know? I've pushed myself to do things I've always wanted to try and held myself back with - I joined an online RPG group and play TTRPG's every week! I have been making the effort to reconnect with the friends I grew up with (and who've also always kept in touch) and we're talking more than we have in like a decade! I've made changes to spite my bad feelings, and it's making life better. It's hard! Super hard sometimes! But it is making life better!

And to have that happen at a point in my life, where at the same point of his life Ziggy basically does the opposite and dies, it's wow it's a lot to just ruminate on.

Huh. it's just a lot. i wanted this to be cute but i guess….

[kleenexwoman]

I'm absolutely gonna gush for a minute about "a lesser key for a smaller lock" and "When Loki Met Eros" series.

I love love love that you were able to capture Eddie and Steve so great when you haven't even seen the series yet and are going off the fan-love all over Tumblr about them. I would love to see what you'd come up with for those two after watching the series and immersing yourself in the story and imagery because you'd absolutely adore it. it would make you squeal a lot, and then the wonders your mind would create for Steddie would be over the moon awesome.

And Loki and Eros are just so fucking adorable, and we all know it's not forever, especially since Eros pings him with the arrow to make him realize Tony's his true love. But still they're so ridiculously teenagery adorable and sexy and fun, and Thor is probably totally going to have to get comfort pancakes with Loki several times because Thor seems like a good brother like that. At least early on. Though if he realizes that Loki's in love with Tony, he's probably just going to spell IHop to have endless neverending pancakes to prepare. LOLOL

Hesiod actually portrays Eros as one of the First Movers of the universe (along with Aphrodite as a primordial god), and I love that--Eros is a force that brings things together in love in order to create the new. Likewise, the Discordians consider Eris a Prime Mover--she creates strife among orderly elements in order to bring freedom and the new. Loki has similar elements to Eris--he is a chaos god and trickster, he rolls into family parties and gets everyone mad, he brings strife.

But he's also a cute androgynous sadboy and he's not related to Eros. I legitimately don't know how they're going to break up, but it's going to be dramatic and complicated and probably unnecessary because they are passionate queer teenagers and love is everything and I had SO MUCH FUN writing them being passionate queer teenagers. aaaaah *rolls around and kicks the air* Thor is going to take over the kitchen and make Loki pancakes while he sits next to the hearth fire sobbing into his mead and pets Frigga's gigantic sled cats.

and I figure I probably will eventually watch Stranger Things for real, but there's something about that "Breakfast Club" thing where kids who embody 80's stereotypes (and we were still in that phase, culturally, throughout the 1990s) learn to appreciate each other and then end up dating each other that makes brain go *brrrrrrrr* especially when it comes to class differences. And I like burnout characters. John Bender, Matt and Layne from River's Edge, Jay and Silent Bob. I actually was friends with a few of the burnouts in high school because they sat at the Nerd Table, so characters like Eddie Munson were in fact my crowd. (It was the burnouts, the anime lesbians, and the kids who were convinced they were wizards, specifially.)

Plus uh I am not unfamiliar with the experience of discourse with deities, demons, etc. both in and out of mine and other people's bodies. I have not yet had sex in that situation, but with the shit I do it's only a matter of time before it happens. (ALWAYS MAKE SURE EVERYONE CONSENTS BEFOREHAND.) (Also, don't just summon random demons. That's not a good idea. I already know someone who knows someone.)

If I ever do write more of that, Steve is going to continue to be demon-ridden because the impression I get of him from fandom is that he is a barely-closeted, deeply unhappy little prep who wants nothing more than to be a househusband and not be constantly attacked by demons, so letting him BE a demon who has six Moonchildren with his rockstar husband and protects them from everything evil would be an ideal life for him.

I'm really really glad you like my storiesssssss <3 you are one of my favorite people to read them

[illiana-mystery]

Oh sweet Marty, you precious man.

[eclipsecrowned]

🥵 : Is your OC perceived as physically attractive to others? Is it at first glance or is it something that takes more time to reach fruition? for anyone you're feeling! // @wolfthcrn

Given this has turned into a muses in general meme rather than focusing on my OCs, I'm answering for the fandom that has me in a stranglehold right now: Stormleet.

Evi is in a weird position with whether she is attractive, and how it is perceived. Objectively, Evi is gorgeous -- a willowy, well-cared for woman with long healthy hair and a good complexion. Her face is symmetrical and she was very overtly an odd match for her 'rock solid body, unfortunate face' husband based on aesthetics/appearance. We also only see Evi from the lens of a culture that renders her exotic. Much is made of the novelty of her blonde hair, her 'strange' clothes, that women of her culture are known for being sexually promiscuous and adventurous, just a laundry list of hate crimes related to her being both beautiful and foreign. She's a beautiful woman, but the approach to her to be so ugly in the eyes of her beholders. I also don't doubt the Alethi treat it as 'she's pretty, but...' about any number of her features, just because she wasn't born Alethi.

Hoid... Is a Charisma build, and he's bad at it. Hawk-faced, white-haired, sharp-nosed, physical age running the gamut from youth to middle age, he has canonically been using illusions to disguise himself for ages. Couple this with being incredibly vain, and he is absolutely attractive on the surface. Couple it with the easy, dangerous charm he can draw upon as needed, or the fact he can disarm with a smile and a joke, and he'd be almost unfairly attractive. He's just also very annoying, very self-centered, and a drama queen. Don't get me wrong, he's handsome and witty enough to have drawn the attention and favor of an ice queen that is far out of his league in what is, for the series, a completely shocking swerve... but there's also dozens of people reveling in his misfortune and who dislike him at a glance.

Moash is hot. I don't make the rules I will just tap the sign. Lean but powerful, the hawkish face that Sanderson loves to ascribe to suspicious bastards in his works, and dark dual-toned hair... Put the man in his black uniform and throw in a super mysterious scar, and the man was built to break hearts. He's the kind of attractive that our protagonist who gets fucked over by him still can't stop thinking about how close they were. The author may not want to hear it, nor does fandom, But I am a Hot Moash Truther and I will not get off this soapbox. I just think his 'type' of hot shifts from book to book, from 'scruffy underfed and traumatized' to 'i like a man in uniform' to 'unhinged sadboy' to 'he's a horizon of red flags but red's my favorite color so what it dooooooooo.'

Syl is cute. Syl is adorable. Syl has committed crimes from the Shattered Plains to Urithiru, but she cannot be convicted because she's just so darn precious. But the main point of this is... I guess? 'Young girl' in her descriptor is kind of vague, but I think fandom has agreed she's like late teens-early twenties/near Kal's age physically but girlish. She's beautiful in the way a facet of nature is beautiful, wind in the trees, sunsets and sunrises, the ocean ebbing and flowing, the moon waxing and waning. I don't know if her spiritual nature can be quantified into 'attractive' so much as it is 'cuteness aggression intensifies' or 'pseudoreligious awe' before you know her, and 'fuckin CREACHER' once you're acquainted. I feel like if you said she was attractive she'd just 'aw and your face isn't as bad as it could be :)' because she has so little understanding of this sort of mortal fleshy affair like aesthetic attraction.

[porquenolostodos]

So I Guess This Is Why I Got On The Hellsite

So, I haven’t really run into this, but the idea of Will’s father being a terrible parent doesn’t really make any sense to me for the reasons listed here, and because Will grew up without a mother.

My Will Graham’s parents headcanon, let me show you it:

I personally think Will’s mother (hereinafter known as, idk, Darlene) was younger than his father (who shall be Johnathan for this purpose because it’s easy) and was just messing around with this kinda cute, very weird guy, not intending to get pregnant. Johnathan was being his undiagnosed ASD self, not really sure what to do with the attention but glad to have it, probably at least dimly aware that he was more serious about things than Darlene, but whatever, she’s out of his league and willing to be here at all, he’ll take it.

And then a condom breaks or whatever, and Darlene finds herself pregnant. Between hormones, religious guilt, and/or rosy visions of playing Domestic Barbie, she elects to keep the baby, and maybe even marry Johnathan, who was kind of sadboy bonding to the idea of a child the way Will would with Margot all those years later (my fucking heart, this is why I actually hate Hannibal and can only ship Hannigram in alternate universes where he’s not the most horrible abusive boyfriend ever) and was determined to do his best.

As the pregnancy goes on, reality sets in. Johnathan is no fucking fun, you can’t take him anywhere, and she’s already getting bored and the damn baby isn’t even here yet. And then he shows up too early, and it’s difficult, so there’s a lot of interventions and drugs and it’s hard to bond, and then Will is a fragile little preemie in an incubator like some kind of alien baby, and she’s just Not Feeling It.

How long Darlene tried to stick around is up for debate, but given that Will seems to have no real memory of her, she was probably gone by his second birthday, leaving his neurodivergent dad to try real hard with limited support.

Will didn’t speak until very, very late, because his father doesn’t speak much, and Will’s hyper-empathy let them understand each other very well without words, and it wasn’t until Will got to preschool that he realized he was supposed to look people in the eye and use human words, and to this day he’s not used to it.

He has also never really gotten over his father’s death, and his father must be dead, because anyone with a living parent they didn’t hate would be calling them up. So I guess that’s what makes people assume abuse, but orphans aren’t just for Victorian London, y’know?

why do people characterize will’s father as bad or abusive so often? in the show itself will clearly associates him with safety and stability.

“a boat on the sea”. we know will lived near water as a child, following his father from “the boatyards of biloxi and greenville to lake boats on erie”. the only time he feels safe is when he thinks back to his childhood with his father.

hannibal even says it outright, saying that that life is an anchor for him.

[locustsummers]

 [Legend of Nayuta] mini gameblog:

>generally overdramatic scene occurs "ah, things are getting ~serious~" >nayuta's stage-clear voiceclips also sober up slightly "wait shit they're actually getting serious??"

Caught me by surprise - though it's honestly a nice little detail, given how some games try grimming things up but don't always change incidental dialogues to match the mood. (sadboi is wounding my heart deep, tho)

Also, I cannot get over how genuinely cute Mishy is in this.

Chunky little plush-toy-lookin' ass.

[emustockings]

weekly roundup

what i've been working on

I've been in a bit of creative crisis the past couple weeks. It's hard to describe other than a bizarre self consciousness in writing... I can't seem to get it started. It'll pass, as they all do, but it's very frustrating atm. I keep having to remind myself that having writer's block isn't the giant existential dilemma that it feels like LOL Take a walk, do other creative things, try again.

what i read

Ozark Magic and Folklore by Vance Randolph Staying With The Trouble by Donna J. Haraway Fathoms: A Mermay Zine - really fucking incredible zine, I'm glad I managed to nab a pdf. Incredible artwork and coordination! still making my way through Gideon the Ninth. I can tell this will become one of my favorites. It's so damn stylish.

what i watched

I caught up completely with the new Pokemon anime and it's so fucking good ok please watch it. I love all the new characters so much. There's this punk rock Nurse Joy who ran away from home and she's my favorite. weekly Utena sessions going fabulously Licca-chan: The Mysterious Magic Bracelet - an old two-episode anime OVA based on the Licca-chan doll line... A deep cut to be sure, but it was super cute ok slowly watching Witch From Mercury as well

youtube highlights

I've been watching the Critical Role squad do a little Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom oneshot and it's been great fun BLACK CHRISTMAS Before & After "Me Too" by Maggie Mae Fish Tim Burton's World of Sadboys by Infinite Snow Productions Development Secrets of the Original Kirby by Masahiro Sakurai on Creating Games I also heard about this really cool project where a dude acquired just heaps and heaps of old tapes of retro gaming stuff that was going to be thrown away and he's painstakingly going through and putting it all up on youtube which is the coolest. The youtube channel is NoClip Game History Archive

[fishgirl514]

sorry i have more to say and this is my blog so i’m going to write an 8 paragraph essay

there were exactly THREE (3) really good scenes:

3. the library scene. very pretty. marinette didn’t do her usual bullshit, it was refreshing. i love mopey miserable sadboy adrien, i think he was listening to radiohead in every scene

2. the identity reveal scene. it was very fanfiction, a lot of pretty emotions and not as awkward and silly and chaotic as i think it would be in the show, but still beautiful and nice to actually see

1. the sparring/kabedon scene

holy fucking shit. we literally never get to see them just being goofy and having interactions that develop their characterization and aren’t either boring or about the plot. seeing them play-fighting each other but using their superpower enhanced martial artistry on each other in a way they wouldn’t be able to with other people without breaking several bones was cute. it was an interaction only they could have. just being superheroes and messing around off duty but in costume. literally so nourishing for my soul.

and then. just when i’m enjoying this little moment, im like no way. oh my god he’s going to back her into the wall NO WAY OH MY GOD. the air was THICK. the tension was PALPABLE. the chemistry was ELECTRIC. she said she needed to go home and he said don’t go and i almost threw up. we NEVER get to see them actually have an alluring spark like this in the show, it’s always obnoxious yearning and second hand embarrassment.

anyway the musical songs were forgettable and a huge waste of time, but the background music was honestly pretty good! it stood out in a few scenes and i loved hearing the familiar tune of the theme song we’ve known for a decade woven into all the important moments.

there was a lot of dragging out random scenes and condensing a lot of others for absolutely no reason. the writers would see a banana peel on the floor with a giant sign that says “warning: slippery banana” and step directly onto the banana and slip and die.

the animation was pretty, obviously, and the character designs were nice. i especially liked the way gabriel looked believably human and emily didn’t look like an alien. pointy ass chin.

ladybug’s yoyo was fucking awesome. i loved the design and i love the little beepeedy beep! and the way it moved on its own and felt like an actually interesting weapon. too bad they couldn’t decide what to focus on the entire movie and it didn’t get explored much.

if i start talking about the characters i’m going to write a book, so i’m going to bed

i was SO EXTREMELY hyped for the miraculous movie that in my hubris, i forgot… is it truly miraculous ladybug if it isn’t at least a little disappointing?

[ohifonlyx33]

here we go since like 3 people liked my last post, here it is. my fancast for a live-action cw-style teen drama based on miraculous ladybug

Remember, everything is aged up a bit (16-19), everything is edgier and darker, and relationships are messier and more melodramatic.

first we have our leads:

Marinette Dupain Cheng is a sweetly quirky and artistic girl who is fueled by passion to achieve her ambitious goals despite her anxious nature, played by Devyn Nekoda, a lesser-known actress with a background in dance who has yet to truly find a breakout role.

Adrien Agreste is the disaffected heartthrob with Soft SadBoi Cinnamon Roll Vibes, a sense of sarcasm that he uses as a defense mechanism, and a subtle charisma, played by experienced actor Charlie Plummer.

Marinette's baker parents are played by Tom Welling and Kristin Kreuk who have the chemistry to make Thom and Sabine really cute.

Gabriel Agreste is played by Ioan Gruffudd who brings a charismatic intensity and intelligence to Gabriel. His enigmatic """"dead""" wife makes cameos in flashbacks played by Laura Vandervoort (alternative: Amanda Schull).

now for some shadier characters:

Cold, efficient, and obsessive Nathalie Sancoeur played by Bridget Regan

Strong and silent bodyguard and threat, The Gorilla played by Tyler Mane

Cutthroat backstabber Lila Rossi, played by Nicole Huff

Self-destructive, broken, and unhinged mean-girl, Chloe Bourgeois played by Savannah Kennick

Amiable-but-spineless slimeball, Mayor Andre Bourgeois played by Clark Gregg

Ruthless Fashionista Audrey Bourgeois played by Rebecca Romijn (alt. Madchen Amick)

Eccentric hipster and outsider Luka Couffaine - Wyatt Oleff (alt. Asher Angel)

Stoic but still kind, Kagami Tsurugi - Lisa Yamada

Bold, vivacious, and inquisitive, Alya Césaire - Paulina Chávez

Friendly, loyal, and effortlessly cool, Nino Lahiffe - Coy Stewart

Anxious and quiet goth girl, Juleka Couffaine - Makenzie Foy (alt. Lola Flanery)

Girly-girl, punk, and sweetheart, Rose Lavillant - Grace Vanderwaal

Math nerd and loveable dork, Max Kante - Jahbril Cook

Precious little hippy friend Mylene - Madison Bailey (alt. Layla DeLeon Hayes)

Snarky skater girl, Alix - Erin Pitt

Easy going sports bro Kim - Lance Lim

Wannabe cool girl, half-sister Zabrina Lee - Ella Anderson (alt. Chloe Csgenery)

Quiet Austitic Kid Ivan - Aedin Mincks

playlist: